Wednesday, September 26, 2012
When are people most alone
When they are spiritually alone
why? because they have no supporters. What i mean by spiritually alone is not that they are in a new environment, is that they don't feel connected at all. When you move into a new environment, there are infinite possibilities as to who will be your friend. However, after a time and you have no friends or companion, you will be truly alone. leaving school alone, having dinner or lunch alone, unable to enjoy activity with friends. That is what i call truly alone for me.
Some people could live alone without companionship, but i can't, not in a million years. I have felt truly alone before, it was a few years back when my friends betrayed me and turn on me. When that happened, i had no one to turn to and no one to go to. My other friends are in another school and the current school, i was friendless. I dwell into a state of lonership and even bullies suddenly came creeping up behind me. I was blackmailed and threatened during middle school. No friend came and my mom couldn't do anything about it.
What happen then? i snapped
that one day when 3 guys crept up behind me demanding me to do some stupid ass shit again, i snapped and i lunged myself on top of them. i got a few punches and kicks on me but i didn't care. I had enough and i went raging. The three guys were bleeding afterwards and they ran off. They never came back again and the story spread throughout middle school. No one messed with me anymore but i was still in a state of weird angry nerd isolation. That was a real hard year for me until finally the wave of fear or something past. Then i had a few friends for a while before i went back to Taipei.
I know what true lonely meant and how scary it was. I often walked in the night alone and rethink the moments during my sort of social exile. That wasn't fun at all, it was depressing and sad without any piers with you and play with you. I had no friends, i was wimpy but in the same time scary for the wimpy kids. I fear that time of bully, desolation, loneliness and fear would arise again. Therefore i improve my image, my class, almost everything to make myself suitable for social standards. loneliness really is the greatest fear in my heart.
Monday, September 24, 2012
How do dreams inpire you
Dreams are a very important part of my life. Often times i have deja vu or like a very inspirational dream while i was sleeping. However, the only inspirational dream i have had before was what dog i should get.
The one dream that i constantly dream of is about zombie apocalypse. I don't know why i always have these zombie apocalypse dreams and i always remember everything. It seems that everytime i would appear in a different location or different people but i always have a gang. I had 2 dreams that reappeared quite a lot of times.
I really don't know what these dreams mean but i really hope they are not foresight dreams. As for inspirations, the zombie dreams don't give me any clear idea of being inspired, but i kind of get wary the next day of things to happen.
Dreams can really have a devastating effect on me but as for when the dream will occur i really wonder. I think this is a chance event for inspirational dreams to happen.
The one dream that i constantly dream of is about zombie apocalypse. I don't know why i always have these zombie apocalypse dreams and i always remember everything. It seems that everytime i would appear in a different location or different people but i always have a gang. I had 2 dreams that reappeared quite a lot of times.
I really don't know what these dreams mean but i really hope they are not foresight dreams. As for inspirations, the zombie dreams don't give me any clear idea of being inspired, but i kind of get wary the next day of things to happen.
Dreams can really have a devastating effect on me but as for when the dream will occur i really wonder. I think this is a chance event for inspirational dreams to happen.
Thursday, September 13, 2012
How does evil manifest itself in Beowulf?
How does evil manifest itself in Beowulf?
How does heroism manifest itself in Beowulf?
From the story up to Grendel's mother, i saw alot of mentioning of God and something about banishment in the story. For example, when it mentioned Grendel at the start it talked about Abel's death. I am not particularly sure who Abel is, but i think he might be some sort of demon like Satin. Abel was banished and he split into a thousand different manifestation as evil spirits. He was like the embodiment of evil, therefore it somehow became the nature of Grendel. It is the origin of Grendel that made himself the manifestation of evil for the people in Beowulf.
As for the manifestation of heroism in Beowulf, he on the other hand acquired the characteristics of God. At lines 310 to 315 mentioned all kinds of things how Grendel was caught in the iron grasp of Beowulf. Beowulf's presence was a sure grip on evil's throat. The story described Beowulf in all kinds of shimmering light as the protector or the strongest man on earth. Heroism itself slowly manifested in the character Beowulf.
The notion of Justice triumphant over Evil is once rooted in alot of people or stories. When evil is being punished like Grendel, the idea that people have in mind is that Beowulf is justice. If it is not justice and heroism that Beowulf represents, then what could possibly have triumphant over evil? These ideas are implanted throughout the start of the story to describe the roles of the different characters. In fact, alot of the places in the story clearly defines the evil and heroism in Beowulf.
How does heroism manifest itself in Beowulf?
From the story up to Grendel's mother, i saw alot of mentioning of God and something about banishment in the story. For example, when it mentioned Grendel at the start it talked about Abel's death. I am not particularly sure who Abel is, but i think he might be some sort of demon like Satin. Abel was banished and he split into a thousand different manifestation as evil spirits. He was like the embodiment of evil, therefore it somehow became the nature of Grendel. It is the origin of Grendel that made himself the manifestation of evil for the people in Beowulf.
As for the manifestation of heroism in Beowulf, he on the other hand acquired the characteristics of God. At lines 310 to 315 mentioned all kinds of things how Grendel was caught in the iron grasp of Beowulf. Beowulf's presence was a sure grip on evil's throat. The story described Beowulf in all kinds of shimmering light as the protector or the strongest man on earth. Heroism itself slowly manifested in the character Beowulf.
The notion of Justice triumphant over Evil is once rooted in alot of people or stories. When evil is being punished like Grendel, the idea that people have in mind is that Beowulf is justice. If it is not justice and heroism that Beowulf represents, then what could possibly have triumphant over evil? These ideas are implanted throughout the start of the story to describe the roles of the different characters. In fact, alot of the places in the story clearly defines the evil and heroism in Beowulf.
Monday, September 10, 2012
Evil: My definition
What are the qualities that define evil?
Evil is everywhere and it is rooted in mankind's soul. Why would i say that? because evil is selfishness. We could talk about all aspects of evil, but the sole concept of evil is the disregard of others. Looking at the actions that are often consider as evil such as killing, it is a disregard of other people's life. The people kills the other man out of disregard and there fore the action is done. When people kill another person, all they were thinking about was themselves, either it is hateful feelings or it is a wish of another man, these are all ideas that stem from personal self interest. A person's personal self interest in theory is selfish thoughts.
Now stirs the question, are selfish people evil then? No, not necessary, selfishness is a quality that all people posses, it is the action that determines if a person is evil. The qualities of evil could be define by a number of different things but the fundamental quality of evil i believe is selfishness.
Evil is everywhere and it is rooted in mankind's soul. Why would i say that? because evil is selfishness. We could talk about all aspects of evil, but the sole concept of evil is the disregard of others. Looking at the actions that are often consider as evil such as killing, it is a disregard of other people's life. The people kills the other man out of disregard and there fore the action is done. When people kill another person, all they were thinking about was themselves, either it is hateful feelings or it is a wish of another man, these are all ideas that stem from personal self interest. A person's personal self interest in theory is selfish thoughts.
Now stirs the question, are selfish people evil then? No, not necessary, selfishness is a quality that all people posses, it is the action that determines if a person is evil. The qualities of evil could be define by a number of different things but the fundamental quality of evil i believe is selfishness.
Monday, September 3, 2012
Late Policy
what would be a effective late policy for this school?
Students should be in school by 8, not 7:55
as for the classes, people should be in class when the bell rang, but the break should be longer, from5 minutes to 8 minutes. Therefore the students in the school will have time to gather their things and move to the next class while being able to use the restroom.
The kick out policy and lock out policy is plain stupidity and useless. To be honest, i went to the bottom of the reason why the tardy policy have gotten so suddenly messed up. It is simply because of two person, and i doubt those two person even know that it was their fault. This late policy on the classes could be negotiate with the teachers, however, this lock out policy have proven just extreme and unnecessary.
late policy in the school is a waste of time and learning. We pay lots of money to this school to receive education, if the students are simply locked out of the school, then where are our money? The head of the school needs to get some sense in her head and remove or readjust the school's policies.
Students should be in school by 8, not 7:55
as for the classes, people should be in class when the bell rang, but the break should be longer, from5 minutes to 8 minutes. Therefore the students in the school will have time to gather their things and move to the next class while being able to use the restroom.
The kick out policy and lock out policy is plain stupidity and useless. To be honest, i went to the bottom of the reason why the tardy policy have gotten so suddenly messed up. It is simply because of two person, and i doubt those two person even know that it was their fault. This late policy on the classes could be negotiate with the teachers, however, this lock out policy have proven just extreme and unnecessary.
late policy in the school is a waste of time and learning. We pay lots of money to this school to receive education, if the students are simply locked out of the school, then where are our money? The head of the school needs to get some sense in her head and remove or readjust the school's policies.
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